Prelude to Esoterica - Full EP Visualizer

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00:00 you heard it right the first time.
3:07 Ballad of i, You, and Me
9:55 somatic memory
11:11 Curse
13:36 Possum Queen
15:48 Esoteric Skies


LYRICS

Track 1:

Starry eyes and tulpas burned alive
Toss a torch but see you’re sitting fine
Watching candles burn and signify
A year I wasted chasing for a lie

I see the moon
Sometimes runs my mood

Reuse chords and words I never meant
Knowing you you’ll get the reference
See my friends and know I killed the vibe
Branded by your names and suicide

I think you knew
They’re all about you

I admit I did a lot of wrong
Started when I said I’ll tagalong
Tell myself I meant it once or twice
Ignorant and caught in paradise

I know I made you up
Can’t let it fuck me up

Track 2:

Back to you

Apologies for future Me and You
i is feeling down and needs to rant
i cant cry
cant sleep
but i can provide dialogue

i feel like You should be someone Me can rely on
Care for
Fall for every morning Me wakes up
But its not something that i should strive for
rely solely on
If i meets you i will never know Me

i should strive for Me instead of You

You aren’t Me
You are You

Me begs for i to stop smoking

Me loves i
Me loves You
You love Me
i also love You and Me
But i hate i
i hates i
Me loves i but is repulsed by i
Me knows what i has done and wishes to never be like i again
Me knows how deplorable i is
How disgusting i is
Me doesn’t wish to be like i again

But Me loves i
You love Me and i
i loves You and wishes i could be like Me
But i cant be like Me

Me is Unattainable
Reliable
Loving
Caring
Understanding
Sweet

I is unstable
unreliable
selfish
obsessive
depressive
intensely in love with future You
You would never love i

i is a deadbeat who just brings You down
You deserve Me
Me isn’t a deadbeat
Me is Unattainable

Me hates i
but loves i
Me knows that i is trying but also knows that if i doesn’t try harder Me wont exist

Because i hates himself

Me Loves i and wishes He could tell him it’ll be ok

That i will have You
That i will have Joy
That i will have Love

But Me cannot because Me is still i
i is Me
You are Me
Me is i
But i am not Me or You

Confusing, right?

Its ok.

I hope Me reads this and knows i loves him
Knows that i cares for Me
Knows that i knows Me cares for i
And that i knows Me cares for You
And You care for Me

And i hope Me cares for you like how You care for Me

Track 3:

i really think
you ruined me

ill never love
the same again

its all your fault
but i forgive you

Track 4:

oh no
i found you again
this time
i think its him

oh shit
i found my type
one who listens
and reads my mind

is it
my time to go?
im scared
of leaving alone

oh man
your voice in my head
brings me shame
and thoughts of death

oh god
i failed to please
the curse of love
and cries to sleep

i think
im ready to go
this road
holds just one soul

Track 5 (Possum Queen):

I feel like a cat pulling strings
Think I unraveled my mind
I dropped a mouse into the sink just to watch it climb out
Then took it to the woods and said you're free
You'll be living like this for awhile now
You're free

For awhile now at least
You say cupid, I say comet
You say wallace, I say gromit
You brought it back when I said
You promised to just call the whole thing off, please
You stay needy, I stay friendless
You stay pristine, I stay pretentious
We'd get married but it's too expensive
Let's call the whole thing off, please

Oh. My. God
This ain't happening to me
And it's all your fault
Said by popular decree
Possum queen by law, she's been building up estates in East L.A.

Is this your first time? That's sweet
Say "hello" to looking-forward for me
If I could set your mind at ease
This will last forever

And when it doesn't, love it for what it is
Don't miss it the way I do
The way I used to

If you love it, love it for what it's been
Don't miss it
Don't wish it back

Don't wish it'd last 'cause if it doesn't
Love it for what it is
Don't miss it the way I do
Don't miss it
Don't miss it the way I miss you

Track 6:

the most fortunate lie
under esoteric skies
where fundamentals shift
via records from the crypt

umbrellas cast shadows
on the faces at the gallows
who bow their heads before
the figurehead of more

the ones who lie in wait
of their soon approached date
when belief may be rewarded
with a freedom once recorded

but theres some who make their best
and view against the text
who find their life inside the light
amongst the esoteric skies

a light that can be felt
be touched and heard and smelt
seen moving through the trees
or among the birds and bees

i can feel the light
from the esoteric skies
the promise of a chase
death alone cannot erase

but be careful what you find
in the esoteric skies
for the chase may snare a fake
bringing pain and vast heartache

i fell for the allure
for the lies and love of man
a mistake ill make just once
and never make again

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